Everything goes wrongly :(

I got a bad starting for 2013
sigh...
this make me can't think positive
fucked up !
I become more selfish, much annoying.
I became don't know how to social in this society
I want a new environment
I want to disappear..
Anything meaningful let me to do?

I am really negative now
I don't know what's wrong with my life.
Did I done anything to make it become like this?
Feel so speechless about everything had happened :/

This exam I feel so relaxing
no stress no panic
I wish every time exam also in this mood.

I am feeling so sad, so negative every day every moment.
uncontrollable..........................

who can read me?
or who can stand with me?
seems like no one take this serious..
the feeling of being left out is so damn 'great'
thank's for forgotten me.
I will stand alone as long as I can.
THANK YOU

bye :(