Worst month ever..

In conclusion, December is the worst month ever for me.
Keep happen bad things
omg
I was like cbujsifbuksjdfskirfua.lwogaweigbel.

Kay
so many bad things happen at once I feel like kanasai
I hope 2013 will be a brand new better year for me
putoh

Thank's God I still have my family and him
If not I think I really will suicide.

Having final exam right now
Hope I can get nice results.
That's all I require until now.
Fuck
I really can't relax
all my money gone like that
I curse that thief forever cannot pass his or her exam and forever alone.
Fuck you thief !! Go to hell !!!

That's all for this post.
Have a great day people.

My last weekend..

Hmm, I starting to skip classes from last Tuesday.
So I don't really know today is what day haha

Owh, I did had an awesome weekend last week but not this week.
Friday, a typical sleep until auto wake day.
After bf back from class we enjoy our time together
and late night he cook me dinner
I feel so loved.

Saturday, another day without alarm noise..
We both cuddling until afternoon then we wake.
We wake up to bath and start our cooking game
The ingredient we've bought few days ago
Cooking together is fun but we also had some different view on cooking
Argue argue then tolerant then come out variety nice dishes hahaaha
he wash all the dirty dishes after the meal
and after that we enjoy movie together and fall sleep together...
baby, i love you.

Sunday, an excited day.
I've been waiting for so long for a party
and tonight is Gaby's birthday
We gonna party hard :D
Music, Liquor, Cakes, Foods and Peoples !
bf wake up in the morning to attend a speech
then when I wake he is about to take nap since he didn't get enough sleep last night.
then I started to prepare meal for him.
I'm just like a wife -.-
prepare meal for him before go out to party
but I'm happy to do that haha
after done prepare meals for him I dress up myself and prepare to party
I did have a great night and I stay at outside
bf sounds ok with that but in fact he's not :x
he make complaints on the coming days
I feel like 'duhhhh, I thought you don't mind'
but I didn't speak out and he keep ask me to apologize yet I refuse to do so.
at last, I win :D

Gaby's Birthday group photo

babe zilin with me 

Continue skipped class on the next week and I come back to my hometown on Wednesday.
oh, not to remind
We have been together for two months
In this two months, argument & happiness never stop flowing.
I feel I loving him more day by day, rely on him more and more.

Final exam is around the corner.
I can't feel exam
I can only feel holiday, shopping, foods and vacation :D
I can't wait to go vacation with him!
That will be the first time we go vacation together whuhooo!
I'm excited !

Everything is awesome with the right person.
I love you once again baby :)

Here's some crap about my day.

Sometimes I just can't understand....
Am I really not caring or you always thought I'm not willing to help
Daddy..
Please know, I have my things to do too..
It's not only playing around kay..
please let me have my time.
even is weekend I always have my tasks to do.
tests keep coming....
and I want some entertainment
I nearly have no social life you know?
sigh..
Why you never understand?

I take time to think at night.
I used to think that silence is the best way to solve problems
but then I start to realize it is not.
At certain time we should voice up for what we think
Since I always keep silence, my boyfriend wouldn't know what am I thinking.
So, he keep doing things I don't like him to do until I tell him.
By the way, he is quite good to me.
He will always listen to me, just... I don't feel like talking hah
Whether I am wrong or him, he will apologize to me at the end.
Sometimes he is just too straight-forward
He don't think a lot.
When I tell him I'm ok with that even I'm not, he will think that I'm ok and keep doing -.-
He don't understand woman language.
Ok means Not Ok !
Get it? I guess he will never see this lol
When we both keep silent, my mind spin around to think what's in his mind.
I don't enjoy the feeling because we're not only not talking to each other, we don't even give a smiley face or eye contact hmmm..
so if I'm in good mood, I'll start to speak up.
Then things will go on beautifully ;)
I will even doubt to his feeling to me and start thinking bullshit
I will thought that he is not so into me, I am not good for him, he feel bored with me, he's thinking another girl etc..
I will keep thinking negative until I cry
It's stupid but I always do so.
but what he always do is show me how much he love me yet I feel not enough :p
I'm just a little too greedy

Today's mood is neutral.
I nearly had an argument with parents this morning.
I've sold a phone after that and this made my day.

Haha, should end up this long crap here.
Bye readers ♥

Yes, is him ! ♥

I have a boyfriend !!!!
Hahahaha!
I wanna tell the world loudly but there are just too many things to be consider..
I don't even tell my family about his existence.
Here is the only place I can be the real me.
No fake masks, no fake feeling.

Thank's God for let me get together with him.
I've been single for a long period of time.
Emm,should say that I never feel so in love together with a guy haha
His appearance never make me think of we both will be together.
He show up like a normal friend.
He is way too shy to talk with us girls.
He is not that kind flirty guy.
By observing his personality, I serious think that he is a good guy XD
But during that time, we girls just simply talk this behind.
And I seriously never thought I gonna spend my days with this guy since he's not my type at all.
Really.. I never imagine my boyfriend would be a person like him.
I mean outlook.
But then his personality really makes me love him so much.
He is a cute, lovely, considerate, stupid boy.

I can still clearly remember how he pursue me at that night ><
He was way too shy to speak it out.
I don't know weather he felt afraid or what.
The way he pursue is really cute like small kid haha
I will not forget that.

And also..
I will never forget how he disappoint me that night.
Maybe I should let go that fklcing memory and live my life happily.
kay... I'll skip this part haha
By the way, the way he apologize is so warm
He sent me a long long message to apologize and also a poem
Hahaha ! Yes, poem !
Poem that think by him he said.
I simply feel insecure because he just broke up with his girlfriend 5months ago and that girl is still into him.
But he did a lot of things to comfort me.
This warm my heart..

I'm just a simple girl that require simple yet fulfilling life.
He gave me the sense of belonging and the feeling of love.
It's just a short period then I have so many things to talk about him haha
I will records down my love story with him in this blog :)

He accidentally told me that before we get together, he used to wait for me online in late night
Haha, I never thought that he would wait for me to online.
During that time, I was facing insomnia quite a long period of time.
Every night when I online I will see him online but I will not talk to him first
He is the one who open up the chat box and talk to me.
and I thought he was just too boring and find no one to talk to him
We almost chat until the sun rises only go to bed everyday
He is a good companion all night long.
I feel so loved when I know this.

Well, here to upload some picture of him and me
Here we start our love journey!!

The 'incorporate' him -.-

He is just like a child haha

I think this is our first photo taken together lol

Feel so bad that we don't took much photos since we're not photo addiction ><

Wish our relationship long lasting ♥ 

Hi to him :)

It's 13th October today.
I'm blogging for the few days before, which is my birthday.

I enjoy my birthday this year
no big celebration, just friends play together
I got some present from few friends :)
and those present makes me feel sweet to the core of my heart
they are so cute
but the things I don't like is I went to club
I don't know how to say
lol
as an unimportant person, I shouldn't have so much feeling
that night, he hug me tight until I can feel the pain
that was the first time I can feel I am needed by a person.
I don't know whether I am a sparetyre or what..
I ...

There are too many things to be considerate..
it's not only you and I
I have to think for so long so far
I'm confused

sjkdfnoern
stop here...
I have no idea how to continue this shit
damn

再一次拥有。。

下着雪的那一夜 
你给的温柔紧握的双手 
温暖整个寒冬 
失去了曾经的拥有 
在你离开以后 
带走了笑容只留下寂寞 
忘了幸福是什么 
没有你的夜特别的漆黑 
只能闭上双眼去感觉 
没有我的夜谁在你身边 
代替了那个从前 
能不能再听一次你说爱我 
回到还在你怀里的时候 
能不能让我再一次拥有 
曾属于我的温柔

还小吗？

突然想起那个整天哭的我
天啊，我怎么那么会哭？
连续哭了整天整夜
哭到睡着，醒来又哭。
每天躲在房间里，像什么样 -.-

现在我也是躲在房间里，就想起了那时的我
自己一个人伤心都没有人知道
好难过
好难过。。。

我好想依赖着一个人一辈子
我好懒
懒得再想那么多

好吧，我该知足
这样实在不好
每天埋怨又得到什么？
要什么就多努力一些吧
虽然真的很羡慕别人随便就可以得到自己想要的
但那毕竟不是我的生活
他人的苦我未必看得到
这是我每天都会说来安慰自己的话
至少这样想我会努力一点，不会那么难过

我真希望某人会看到这个，然后在我需要人陪的时候就算只是默默坐在我身旁我也够了。