Yes, is him ! ♥

I have a boyfriend !!!!
Hahahaha!
I wanna tell the world loudly but there are just too many things to be consider..
I don't even tell my family about his existence.
Here is the only place I can be the real me.
No fake masks, no fake feeling.

Thank's God for let me get together with him.
I've been single for a long period of time.
Emm,should say that I never feel so in love together with a guy haha
His appearance never make me think of we both will be together.
He show up like a normal friend.
He is way too shy to talk with us girls.
He is not that kind flirty guy.
By observing his personality, I serious think that he is a good guy XD
But during that time, we girls just simply talk this behind.
And I seriously never thought I gonna spend my days with this guy since he's not my type at all.
Really.. I never imagine my boyfriend would be a person like him.
I mean outlook.
But then his personality really makes me love him so much.
He is a cute, lovely, considerate, stupid boy.

I can still clearly remember how he pursue me at that night ><
He was way too shy to speak it out.
I don't know weather he felt afraid or what.
The way he pursue is really cute like small kid haha
I will not forget that.

And also..
I will never forget how he disappoint me that night.
Maybe I should let go that fklcing memory and live my life happily.
kay... I'll skip this part haha
By the way, the way he apologize is so warm
He sent me a long long message to apologize and also a poem
Hahaha ! Yes, poem !
Poem that think by him he said.
I simply feel insecure because he just broke up with his girlfriend 5months ago and that girl is still into him.
But he did a lot of things to comfort me.
This warm my heart..

I'm just a simple girl that require simple yet fulfilling life.
He gave me the sense of belonging and the feeling of love.
It's just a short period then I have so many things to talk about him haha
I will records down my love story with him in this blog :)

He accidentally told me that before we get together, he used to wait for me online in late night
Haha, I never thought that he would wait for me to online.
During that time, I was facing insomnia quite a long period of time.
Every night when I online I will see him online but I will not talk to him first
He is the one who open up the chat box and talk to me.
and I thought he was just too boring and find no one to talk to him
We almost chat until the sun rises only go to bed everyday
He is a good companion all night long.
I feel so loved when I know this.

Well, here to upload some picture of him and me
Here we start our love journey!!

The 'incorporate' him -.-

He is just like a child haha

I think this is our first photo taken together lol

Feel so bad that we don't took much photos since we're not photo addiction ><

Wish our relationship long lasting ♥ 

Hi to him :)

It's 13th October today.
I'm blogging for the few days before, which is my birthday.

I enjoy my birthday this year
no big celebration, just friends play together
I got some present from few friends :)
and those present makes me feel sweet to the core of my heart
they are so cute
but the things I don't like is I went to club
I don't know how to say
lol
as an unimportant person, I shouldn't have so much feeling
that night, he hug me tight until I can feel the pain
that was the first time I can feel I am needed by a person.
I don't know whether I am a sparetyre or what..
I ...

There are too many things to be considerate..
it's not only you and I
I have to think for so long so far
I'm confused

sjkdfnoern
stop here...
I have no idea how to continue this shit
damn

再一次拥有。。

下着雪的那一夜 
你给的温柔紧握的双手 
温暖整个寒冬 
失去了曾经的拥有 
在你离开以后 
带走了笑容只留下寂寞 
忘了幸福是什么 
没有你的夜特别的漆黑 
只能闭上双眼去感觉 
没有我的夜谁在你身边 
代替了那个从前 
能不能再听一次你说爱我 
回到还在你怀里的时候 
能不能让我再一次拥有 
曾属于我的温柔

还小吗？

突然想起那个整天哭的我
天啊，我怎么那么会哭？
连续哭了整天整夜
哭到睡着，醒来又哭。
每天躲在房间里，像什么样 -.-

现在我也是躲在房间里，就想起了那时的我
自己一个人伤心都没有人知道
好难过
好难过。。。

我好想依赖着一个人一辈子
我好懒
懒得再想那么多

好吧，我该知足
这样实在不好
每天埋怨又得到什么？
要什么就多努力一些吧
虽然真的很羡慕别人随便就可以得到自己想要的
但那毕竟不是我的生活
他人的苦我未必看得到
这是我每天都会说来安慰自己的话
至少这样想我会努力一点，不会那么难过

我真希望某人会看到这个，然后在我需要人陪的时候就算只是默默坐在我身旁我也够了。

A Goal to Achieve !

After view several thinspiration website,
I decide wanna find back the 47 kg me in at least in 2 months time!

Sigh...
These years, I keep gaining weight and I just ignore that..
I always find myself an excuses to keep fattening...
so bad..
I think I will be success if I insist for a little long time.. just a little more long time..

About last month post..
I've said that I wanna quit to go club and I did it !
This makes me believe that I can do anything if I insist !!
Now I don't really think want to go to club even my friends invited me.
Somehow, I will not be used to it when the beginning of quitting..
Slowly... I will forget about it and not feeling want to go again..

Well, I gonna plan a diet plan for myself
Here's are several rules I must follow in the following month..

Firstly, I wanna quit all fast food including my favourite McDonald :(
sounds sad right..
but I have to do so...
In the process of slimming I will sometimes buy myself a set of fast food to encourage myself when there's a little lose weight
but this will cause myself gaining back and sometimes even more weight I put on..
After that, it's again a hard & long journey to go on..
Over and over again, I repeating those steps and I'm tiring with it!!!

Secondly, strictly no supper !!!
no matter how less I eat in day time, I must quit supper !
every time I keep think that but didn't action
this is my defeat point.. always say more than do....
I gonna be much more strict on this!!

Thirdly, non junk food lifestyle.
once in two weeks is acceptable right?
argghhhh, I try to make it once in a month
goshhh, or I try not to touch it until I success!!!!!!
rawrrr T.T
I must success!!!
I wanna tuck in that shorts!!!! I wanna own sexy legs !

Fourth, be as lazier as I can.
this is my personal way to slim down haha
I've tried to lay on my bed for whole day long and ate only one mini swissroll and several cups of water
I admit this is not a healthy way to diet but I enjoy that
I sleep for whole day long and not thinking of hunger
only a week, my friends said that I'm getting thinner
but then I spoil my plan with eating lots with them TT
the funniest part of this way is : The fastest you slim, the fastest you gain if uncontrollable LOL
Based on my knowledge, the starting of weight losing you still have to remain for a little time until your body is remain the weight for few months is more appropriate..
but still, buffet or what is not allow up to 2 times in a month.

Fifth, get rid of all seducing good food or else be controllable !
hmm, I will plan myself a trip each semester break.
you know, college life is kinda boring and have to concentrate on study..
what if I don't plan for a vacation during semester break and I go to next semester again?
I think I will be lifeless........
no motivation to go to final exam
and yeah, a vacation to a different place, we must try out all the food that we don't have in our land.
that will cause gaining weight no doubt!
try to share it with friends or keep it if it can be kept.
T_T
it's sad that cannot try out the local food during a vacation..
that makes a vacation lost it's meaning..
or the worst decision is strict myself again after the vacation.
this time must be even strictly !!

Ahhhh, be like this first la
Please !! Must insist !!!!!
Bear in mind the bad consequences of over eat!!
Peoples, please share food with me to makes my plan success :D
Million thanks to you !

I hate to get interrupt during I am updating my blog..
sometimes I'll get back and forget what's in my thought at start
Sometimes it is a super amazing sentences that I can think of.
and I just forget it like this.... zzz

haha, again a long post...
End up here!!
Happy reading, readers.

*I guess no one have so much patience to read until here :p*

it getting closer...

Today got presentation, but I haven't memorize yet lol
getting lazier and lazier...
final is around the corner...
I started to skip classes...
I just lazy to walk to class, it takes 10 minutes to reach :/
and I'm alone all the way :(
I don't like that feeling...

godamn....I didn't rest early these days...
I don't like it.
it makes me feel even tired in the day time...
daddy wanna get me a new phone, I hope he keep his promise
too bad...I grow up so old still need daddy spend so much so me....
I don't like this..

I kinda enjoy my life these days...
eat well play well sleep well but not study well..
start revision !!!!!!
faster !!! LOL
stop here, bye readers :)

I got lots of picture but camera is not with me now..
will upload them next time :)

Time fliesss..

Hi, I didn't update my blog for months
sorry for that
here I am to update it.

well, actually I'm not trying to gain readership here
I just record my life here while I still remember it.
you know, sometimes I don't have a laptop with me and that's difficult to let me update my blog.

hmm, talk about my recent's activities....
I dance on every Wednesday as previous month
oh ya, I add on one more activity that is swimming!
haha, recently swim quite often.
I enjoy myself when I'm in the water
of course, not the drowning part ><
I'm still a beginner yet..
even I'm not good in swimming but I find it interesting

after party months, I've stop to go to any club
It's crazy to visit club every week
I'm fed up
it's enough for me.
Now I think back the time, it's horrible.
how can I attend whole day classes and then go to club after that?
I don't even take a nap between it all.
Crazy party girl.....
and now it's over
every new things, I have to overtake it until I afraid of it.
I must tried up 10 up to 20 times only I can control myself.
stupid enough!!
haha
good also, at least I can control myself

I wanna throw away the old me and start it all over
I find my life goals
I finally know how and what should I do at what time.
and I seriously know that I have some changes this years
thank's for all people around me.
Even though there are many things happen in this year, but I'm happy with that
I grow up a little by little because of those matters
and now I turn into this me.
I can say I've experience many things
at least more than the other that same age with me.
I'm not this strong before, but now I have to be strong
only late night can bring my tears out
I admit. I do not do well in communication.
I will not clarify for myself even the others misunderstand me.
I live the way much into my own world.
but I am happy with that.
at least it's better than I have to worry how people think about me everyday

woahhhh, this is a long post. I gonna end this with some photos ;)

with my babe

self-portrait :)

quite a time ago haha

#nowplaying: A-Lin 《等你》

yeeen xoxo ♥